counting

it was a day for counting blessings....not just because there were many but because God put me in a mindset to notice them. praise the lord. Today blessings are not just about a happy feeling, they are about a realization of how little I truely deserve, how insignificant I really am, and how completely and utterly significant I am because of a bridegroom who loves me despite my unfaithfulness.

Tonight I'm thankful because...

~ My studying is paying off in decent grades and, more importantly, learning that really means something in my target field

~ I'm approaching a much needed break

~ I have friends around me who care enough to give me space when I need it and to get in my face when I think I need space but really need connection...the good, messy connection that God places between people with genuine needs, strengths, and sins.

~ I'm bothered by injustice in new ways every day...and begining to look for ways to more actively seek its retribution

~ Its raining outside...a lot...maybe Decatur won't have to get a new lake after all

~ I am surrounded by adults who model strong marriages, friends who teach me what it means to love genuinely, and friends who feel more like family

~ my summer soybean project is drawing to a close

~ my life is filled with music

~ I am able to read and think...and to feel resonnance with truth, even in the most bizzare places

~ I get to see my Jackie dear this weekend...it's been far too long

~ My God does not love me more or less for what I do...I have His love simply by accepting it

its good to count every now and again...to remember not to take these things for granted. to remember that part of living life abundantly is taking the time to notice them.